Savor the Memories

I've been messed with, let down, and played too many times. I wonder what people think of me too much, and I sometimes let stupid comments of judgment out. My heart is big but I have my selfish moments. I love to be in big groups, but I love to be alone. Every song on my ipod has a special memory or a regret behind it. I don’t like going through old pictures because I miss what used to be. I tend to over think things and I trust way too many people. I have the people I’d love to pack up and leave with, and there are some people I wish would just disappear. This little annoying town I live in suffocates me. My parents put way to much pressure on me. But I don't have the heart to let them down. I'm always up wayy to late, and I can't sleep because of my night terrors. I don’t cry very often, but when I do I can’t stop. I hate the word goodbye and I wish it didn’t exist. I hate liars, though I lie myself. I have secrets hidden in me that even I don’t know. I’m still finding things out about myself, so don’t be quick to judge. You kinda don't know me at all. I've been through so much, and I'm only at the age of 17. I live to get away. I would run if I had to, please... Just leave me be, I'm doing my best to stay sane... and alive for that matter, until high school is over. If you need someone to talk to, I'm here. I will never judge because I know how hard life can be. Yes it seems as if I have it all, but a picture is worth a thousands words. Just remember to breathe, it'll help you make it through. At least it's helping me...